Dude. I had all the pictures ready to be put into this post when I realized I had accidentally saved all of them at a low JPEG quality. They looked terrible. I had to completely re-edit, resize, name, and watermark them.
Which is a lot of work. -_-
Thank goodness I remembered I had Jesus in my heart before the entire world FELT MY DEADLY WRATH because I was quite upset and stressed at the moment. XD
Nah, I wasn’t that upset for long. XD I managed to re-edit them in a decent amount of time.
From part five:
I turn toward her. Taryn cries again as she runs to me, and we both hug each other for a long, long time.
When I finally pull away, I blink back my tears and stumble back, not wanting to let her out of my sight but forcing myself to turn toward the car.
And all too soon, I’m running toward it, far, far away from her.
I realize I’m still holding the Bible under my arm, and my grip on it tightens. I’ve said nothing good about God my entire life, but I sure need Someone right now.
Would God really help me keep my head up, or would He help my sister instead? I blink my eyes, not sure if I’m trying to keep from crying or am going to close them and say my own prayer.
Please help Taryn. And I know You probably don’t like me because of what I’ve said about You, but if You have a little help left, please help me, too.
“Del! Wait! Wait!”
I halt in my tracks, swiping at my eyes as I turn around so no one can tell I’m crying. I don’t think it works, but Katy is running up to me. “I’ll go,” she says breathlessly.
Wait, what? “What do you mean?”
“I’ll go! Madison said that the girl who adopted you just wanted an American Girl doll and an American Girl doll only, right? If she doesn’t care about what kind she gets as long as it’s an American Girl doll — I can go and you can stay here!”
My jaw drops. “Katy!” I don’t know what else to say. “You can’t just — no! This is your home now.”
“But you’ve been waiting since before Christmas to be with your sister again, right?” Katy persists. She places a comforting hand on my arm. “You deserve to be here.”
“So do you!” I blurt. I harden my gaze at her. “When I say no, I mean no,” I reinforce. “You have to stay here.”
The Uber driver waves at us in what I think is impatience, and Katy grabs me by the shoulders and walks me back to where Taryn is. “It was amazing to meet you, evil mind twin,” she smiles.
“Katy!” I sputter, tears rushing to my eyes again. “Katy, no!”
Katy smiles kindly and waves, taking a few steps back before running off toward the car without so much as dashing inside to get her bag first.
All nine of us stand there at the doorstep as we watch the car drive off, and that’s when I lose it again. I drop the Bible I’m holding to the ground and clap my hands over my mouth to muffle a sob.
I realize just how much of a friendship I’ve shared with Katy Christine. K.C. has been kind, competitive with me, a great teammate for stuff, and overall amazing. She’s been by my side — even if only for the last few days — and now she’s leaving it.
She’s so courageous. So kind. So brave. So selfless. So caring, compassionate, concerned. She just risked her chance at a happy family so I could be happy.
Only I’m not.
Katy Christine was my first real friend. Besides Taryn, that is. And now — and now — and now she’s gone.
Everyone is staring at me as I stand there sobbing, and I suddenly become aware of it. I blush scarlet, hating people see me when I’m at my weakest, and run off away from them in tears.
I throw myself behind a tree and slide down until I’m sitting, burying my face in my hands and sobbing for all I’m worth.
A while later and after my heavy sobs have subsided, I feel someone slip an arm around my shoulders and slide down to sit next to me.
“It’s going to be okay, Del,” I hear Taryn’s voice promise. “You’ve got to keep your head up. You’re an overcomer.”
“Easy for you to say!” I turn my head toward her and shout to her face. “You and your stupid ‘God will give you courage’!” I mimick in the most ridiculous and angry baby voice I can muster.
“Del,” Taryn says softly. She knows the secret to keep me from shouting — talking quietly so I have to lower my voice to hear her. “We weren’t meant to live life daunted by circumstance. We’re meant to conquer.”
She slides the Bible to my lap and begins to flip it open to a location she has in mind. “God gives us the courage and authority to conquer in each situation, ruling and reigning like a queen in this life and eternity –“
“Stop!” I shout in infuriation, grabbing the Bible from her hands and ripping a page out of it.
I crumple it in fury and throw the paper ball as far as I can.
“I hate everything!” I scream. I stand up from the ground and storm off, leaving Taryn alone and in tears.
I’m running so hard and so fast down the street with no direction and tears blurring my vision that I don’t see the person walking in front of me.
SLAM! I collide with someone so hard I begin to see stars as my vision flashes black and white for a few moments.
I fall backwards and hit my head on the concrete with a sickening BANG! Hearing someone scream, I wonder who it is until I realize it’s me.
My head pulsates with pain as my vision clears enough after a minute to see someone standing over me. I blink a few times and wince at another hammer-like pounding from my head and make out the face of a young woman.
“Oh gosh,” she says. “You alright?”
I grimace again as she helps me sit up, and I force myself not to cry. I’ve shed enough tears already.
“Yeah,” I say, although the world around me is spinning and my skull feels like it’s sledgehammering. “I’m fine.”
“You were running really fast,” the lady observes. “Going somewhere?”
I shrug. “I don’t know where I was going.”
“Are you lost?” She asks.
“I’m a counselor,” she says. “My name is Sarah Moore. I can help you.”
Help? I didn’t ask for that. “I don’t want your help.”
“But you need it,” she nods. “Let’s talk.”
I snort. Whatever.
“What’s got you so upset?” She motions to my tearstained cheeks, and I blush.
“Just a friend. She left.”
“No. She had to leave. She moved.”
“Ah. Well, you know what they say. Things happen and there’s nothing we can do about it.”
There isn’t? That’s not what Taryn has been saying. “My sister says God gives us the courage to reign and conquer over life’s situations. Something about authority.”
Sarah smiles impatiently. “Well, that’s not true. I’m an atheist, so I know.” She continues. “There’s nothing we can do about what life throws at us but grin and bear it.”
The advice she’s giving me doesn’t settle so well inside. But Taryn’s words flash to mind, and I feel a whole lot more peace and courage than I do when Sarah gives her advice.
“My sister says we weren’t meant to be daunted by circumstance. Something about the authority to rule, reign, and conquer.” The words coming out of my mouth don’t make me feel like I want to cry in desperation anymore, but Sarah laughs.
“You poor brainwashed religious fanatics.”
“It’s not religious fanaticism,” I steal Taryn’s quote. “It’s about God coming down from Heaven and touching our hearts. And if I’m going to be a Christian, I’ll be anything but poor, I’ll tell you that!”
Sarah glares at me with what I think is death. “That’s what you think.” Then she smirks. “You’re not a Christian?”
“No,” I mumble. Sarah grins. Then I quickly add, “Not yet.” I wince at my words. Am I really thinking of converting to my sister’s silly ideas about things?
“Oh?” Sarah raises an eyebrow. “You think that’s real?”
“I don’t think it’s real. I know it’s real. It’s a lot more real and fills me with a lot more peace and joy than your empty, pathetic advice does.” Sarah’s face flashes with offense, but I continue. “If God would accept me, maybe I would be a Christian.” I think I feel tears coming on, and soon one slips down my face. “He sounds so amazing and loving.”
Sarah drops her smirk and stares at me for a while. “God doesn’t exist,” she finally mumbles. “if He did, He killed my dad.”
“He did?” That doesn’t sound right. “My sister says God doesn’t do that.”
“Does He?!” Sarah’s voice rises and I think I spy tears in her eyes. “Because I prayed long and hard for him get better and instead he died!”
Oh. I stare at Sarah for a little while before kind of slipping my arm around her shoulders since she’s not any taller than me. “I don’t know why your dad died. But my sister says something like stuff like that is never God’s will.”
“What do you know?” Sarah yells. “You’re not even a corny Christian!”
“If I was a Christian, I’d be anything but corny,” I promise. Then more tears slip out. “I know I’m mean and don’t deserve God’s love but whenever my sister talks about Him I think I feel it.”
Sarah steps away from me and turns her head away, and I realize she’s crying. “I wish I felt love like that.”
I swipe my eyes. “I’d better — I’d better go home,” I mumble. I sniff and straighten my shoulders. “Thanks for the advice, but I think I’d rather conquer life then get whooped by it. I just need my sister to tell me what to do.”
Sarah says nothing to me, but I hear her sniff too. “Good luck with that,” she says.
I turn away from her, and as I do, she calls out. “Sarah Moore,” she says. “Look me up. Tell me if you find that love and courage.”
I turn around to face her. A small smile brightens my eyes as I promise her with a nod.
To be continued… in Heads Up – Part 7!
Okay — quick announcement! Heads Up is put on pause until after Hang on to Hope. I have a lot of big plans for it and things going on as well as new computer time limits, so I’m having to cut back on a lot. If you haven’t seen me commenting on your blogs as often, that’s why. I’m going to be jam-packed this month with reading and reviewing three writing books, working on some big stuff for Hang on to Hope, rewriting my first historical epic, new extra curricular activities, keeping up with both blogs the entire time and a ton of other stuff I don’t have time to explain.
I wanted to say more but I have to quickly post this before I waste all my computer time… I apologize for typos. The stress is real. ?
Have you been looking forward to season three of Hang on to Hope? Let me know in the comments below!
Much love and am praying for you! Replying to all of your lovely comments just as soon as I possibly can!
YAY part six! That’s SOOOO sad that K.C left WOW this is SAD?????? I am excited for part 7!?? and yay I’m really excited for hand on to hope! Have a great day Madi!
YAY! Awwww I know right :'( I’m so excited for it, too! Thank you so much, Sara!
Yay XD this is so sad???
Yes! SO EXITED!! just post post POST!!!!!
ME TOO! Hehe XD
I hope your stress goes away -_- -_- -_-
Me too -_-
What typos? o_O
wait, that wasn’t the point. ahem. that was so nice of K.C! and what do you mean you’re putting it on hold for hang on to hope??? at least the agony of the cliff-hanger has faded, so I can wait a little longer…*mumbles about needing heads up more*
Most crazily, ~Olive
Gasp, there weren’t any?
XD SORRY BUT HOTH HAS BEEN SCHEDULED FOR THIS DATE SINCE LAST YEAR SO I KINDA CAN’T LET HEADS UP CHANGE IT I KNOW BAD ME. XDD LOL!
Loved this, Madi! Can’t wait for more of HOTH! :D
Thanks, Charis! I’m super excited! :D
Wow, Madison! At least you didn’t have to take all of the photos again. Please tell me that you are not going to get rid of K.C! I would not be very happy. I doubt that you are because K.C has a profile photo now. Is Sarah Moore your doll? She looks a lot like Emily Bennett. Is she? I can’t wait until part seven comes out! Great job! Your photos really told the story, and the words just helped add detail and make the point. You really got the focal points very sharp! You have fantastic photography skills! Keep it up!
Yeah, at least I didn’t have to do that!
Haha, of course not! I wouldn’t be very happy either. ;) Sarah was played by Emelie. ;)
Awwww, thank you so much! You’re so sweet! Your comment made my day ?
Wow! That was unexpected!
Poor Sarah! Her dad and her disbelief.
Can’t wait for HOTH!!!
Hehe! I like plot twists. ;)
Aww I know right?
YAY! I’m super excited!
HOTH!?!?!?!?!!? HOOORAY! But sad because this is on hold now…….
YESSS!!! I’m sorry…
I feel so bad for Del, but I’m happy she gets to stay with her sister!
and I’m also happy that she might have a chance at making a believer out of Sarah!
-Lucky (aka Sophia)
Aww haha me too!
And yes! Me too!
I wasn’t following you when you did Hang on to Hope! I’ll have to check it out. We’ll miss your wonderful posts. Don’t be stressed girl the Lord knows what he’s doing even if it means stressing out. I know everything will work out. :)
Haha season 1 is pretty — terrible — but season 2 makes a lot more sense!
Awww, thank you SO much, Rose! You really encouraged me :D Thank you <3
Great post, Madison! I was so sad for Delaney when K.C. left! She better come back…..At least Del is softening a bit. :)
Thank you so much, Sassafras! Awww! And yep! :D Thanks for commenting!
Oh, wow! This was so dramatic and interesting and… EPIC!!! :o I loved it! I can’t wait for the next part! But, I am looking forward to Hang on to Hope, even though I’ve never read any of them before since I’m fairly new to your blog. You are so creative, I love your posts! :D
Sending you love and hugs and a stress squishy ball. ;)
Awww YAY! Thank you so much! And YAY! You’re so sweet Livy, thank you SO much! :’) <3 ?
Aww loved this! Although the picture things sounds like SUCH A SERIOUS STRUGGLE UGH. And ooh! Can’t wait to see the next part of HOTH. SOUNDS EXCITING ASJLDFKJ.
Aw thanks! LOL YES. -_- Thank you so much! HEHE.
Wow, Great part! I liked how you did the pictures of Del running into Sarah, and Del looking up at Sarah :-) . It’s neat to watch the journey that Del is going on! :-) (and Sarah)
Thank you so much, Gracie! I’m so glad you liked them! Thank you so much for commenting. ?
HEADS UP PART 6!!!!!!! OH YEAH!!!! UH-HUH!!!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!! *cheers* *throws confetti* *dances and yells for a while*?
that was soooooooo coooool! Madi, you are SUCH A GOOD STORYTELLER!!!!! HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU DO THAT!!!!
I CANT BELIEVE YOU SENT KATY OFF!! JUST LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohhhhhh it broke my heart!!!!! she is so SELFLESS, so CARING, so KIND!!!!!!!!????????????????????? There is simply not enough crying emojis in the world to describe how sad i am!!!! *sniffs a bit more*
epic, madi! oooh, your cliffhangers!!!?? I feel really bad putting more pressure on you, but puh-leeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaase do part 7 soon pleasepleasepleeeeeease!!!
LOLOL oh my gosh Molly your comments are awesome XDD
AWWW! You are SO sweet! I am SOO glad you like my stories!! You’re so awesome ?
Hehe. My cliffhangers. >:) Heads Up part 7 will come just as soon as I can get it up! Until then you’ll just have to wait, because I am evil and make all of you wait. MWAHAHA.
That was great, Madi! I did NOT see that coming with K. C.! O.o And that was sweet when Del met the counselor. :) I can’t wait for the next part and the Holding Onto Hope post too!
Thank you so much, Allison! :D I’m super excited for it!
Oh, and how many photos does it typically take to do one post?
There’s not a typical number — it totally and completely varies per post. For me, at least. ??
What?????? You end it like that and then you leave us????? MUST KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!!!! Oh, well hang on to hope seems good too…………
MWAHAHAAA! Just kidding. I just have HOTH set for a date and have had it set since last year, so I can’t let Heads Up change it. XD
Hooray for heart-wrenching photostories featuring depressed atheistic counselors!!!! GO MADI WITH YOUR CLIFFHANGERS!!! Can I just say that really did want to cry in the middle?? POST PART SEVEN REALLY SOON OR I WILL DIE AND MY UNDEAD WRATH SHALL BE UPOUN YOU!!!!
HAHAHA. NO. NEVER. MWAHAHAHAAA!
You are so mean. :(
WATCH OUT FOR THE UNDEAD WRATH!!
I can’t help my meanness. ?
holy cats that was good
*also dies bc you died*
awww thank you
I loved it but…KATY!!! ?????????????
YAY!!! HOTH!!! :D :D :D :D
Awww I know right ??
YAY!! I am SO excited! :D
I loved this part!! I can’t wait to see what happens next. :D
P.S: Random question — what service do you use to run ads on your blog? Thanks! :)
Yay! Thank you so much! :D
P.S. Before, I used Google AdSense, but now they don’t let me. Since they stopped doing that, my dad fixed the ads for me and I’m not sure. I can’t find out by looking at my settings. :/ My other ads are because I’m an Amazon affiliates member. I hope that helps! I’ll try to find out the exact thing I use for the ads for you :D
Okay, thanks so much! :D
You’re so welcome! :D
Hey Madi! I nominated you a while ago. Here is the link to the post. https://dollsbythedozen.wordpress.com/2017/06/03/ive-been-nominated/
Awww, thank you SOO much, Christina! You’re so sweet!
OH. MY. GOODNESS!!!! Did DELANEY just convert someone into a CHRISTIAN!!! I’m literally sooooooo happy! When I was reading the story I was like ok we have a nice counselor here she’s probably going to give Del a sermon and Del will become a Christian and Del will go back to Taryn. And then Sarah Moore’s like “I’m atheist” and “religious fanatics” and I was like WHAAAAAAAAAAT? Anyway, I’m so excited for the next part I can’t wait to see what happens (I really hope both Del and Sarah become Christians).
~Samiya (and her 4 dolls) : )
HEHEHEHE! Awwww! LOL you make me crack up XDD Awww! Thanks so much for commenting, Samiya! :D
Also I love to see a Hang on to Hope Season 3. I thought you’d never ask lol. I was so sad when Coconut died I was like noooooooooo!! Lol your always leaving cliffhangers Madi! But all of your photo story series are really good so it’s worth the wait.
~Samiya(and her four crazy dolls)
YAY! I’m super excited for Hang on to Hope! LOL, yes, cliffhangers are just too fun not to do! XD
AWWWW! You are SO sweet! I’m so glad you like them! That means so much. :’)
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh……. noooooooooooooooooo……. so sad! (except I’m not quite crying since you sneak-peeked it for me when we met. MWAHAHAHAHA) I CAN’T WAIT FOR HOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAAAAAY!
Awwwwwwww LOL! (MWAHAHAHAHAHAAAA. XD) SQUEEEE! I am SO glad you’re excited, I’ve been working on it like crazy!! :D
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THIS WAS SERIOUSLY SO GOOD! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT!!
AWWWWW THANK YOU SOOO MUCH, ENNI! YOU ARE SO SWEET! Your comments never fail to make my day! :’) I’m so glad you liked this! :’)
Oh my goodness I love this part so much I was practically crying! So moving! ESPECIALLY WHEN KATY LEFT OH MY WORD I DIED RIGHT THERE.
AWWWWW NINA THAT MEANS SO MUCH. <3
You’re very welcome!